Another day at the hell house~! 082708

i really dont know what to write well i should have written entries about it a long time ago. but i just started now. when i am leaving soon. oh well..

they dont have to worry i wont be stayng here for long and i swear i will never ever even dare to go back~!
i swear it until my nails go blue~! oh wait they are already blue~! what the heck am i talking about.

Today i didn't go o work because i was not feeling well. and yes i hope just did~! i stayed home coz i though that she would not sleep in the room. so there i was in deep slumber when suddenly the door opened and she watche TV like there was only her in the room. she had the volume up once again without a care in the world. talking about doing it intentionally~!
then i woke up early in the morning already at aroung 3.45 am i went down and ate coz nobody even bothered to ask me if i wanna eat dinner that night. then i went back up. ididn;t make any noise at all i just turned on the dim ligts coz im gonna get something. well she just said i was inconsiderate that i just turned on the lights just like that~! well how many times have you done that to me you bitch?! i know i should not be caling her like that but i'm also pissed. let me tell you I am full to the brim of being mad and disgust of their attitude. how many time ave you done that when i needed sleep huh? that is why i prefer to live somewhere else where i can rest whenever i want and do whatever i want. if you are irritated of me then im fine with it. heck i dont care.

and imagine this it is even the day before my birthday and you do this~! haha... let me tell you this i will never spend my birthday here~! NEVER~!

although you are more capable than others. remember all of this, you can never take them when you die~ I hope you mind that.

omma,

and to my mom~ dont even bother greeting me happy birthday. coz this year i will never be happy n the situation i am in~! i dont know why you dont care. you really have no idea. or you just pretend that i am fine under your dongsaeng's wing when i am not.. i really am not. if only i am capable of recording every convo i had with the witch i would have done it so that you can listen to it. listen how evil she can get. I even cried to you on the phone. you know how hard it is for problems to make me cry but you didn;t even take that. are you really my mom?

ahjumma,

you will never gain back the respect i had for you before~! never~! even if they say time will make me forget and heal the wounds you ave caused... Not this time and not me~ you will never get that back i swear. and after i leave you oh so extravagant house. trust me you will never ever see me again. i'll never set foot in your house as long as i live. i hope your conscience bugs you until i dunno~ i may not have answered you back but dont wait for it. i respected you ever since but you taugt me how not to respect you. you are the one who instilled that to me so dont blame me~ blame yourself.


Dongsaeng JNGP,
I dont get why you can be nice sometimes and sometimes be oh so cruel~ iam not sure if you are being instructed to do such evil stuff or whut~ but whateve good luck~ i hope you get good friends.

Dongsaeng,

i cannot take the aggravation they are giving me here. i know you are living like princess getting all the things you want in every whim. so you just take my sacrifices for granted. i hope one day you wake up and find that i am not there anymore. honestly once the parentals decide to transfer here in manila trust me you will never find me here. even if you try.




edit--

now i know why they are acting so strangely. my panda journal is missing~! i mah give it to eeteuk oppa and it is missing~! galing~! so that is why i caught that kid snooping around my stuff when he didnt expect me to be home early. so i dont care. at least they know that is what i think of em~!

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